Serenity

Clouds drift around me

They part, below me, above me

I've reached the peak

My life has ended, yet it's only just begun.

Brightness, it blinds me

Does it represent His glory?

And I'm spinning, liberated, so free.

Mist has faded, oh the clarity

Heart rejoicing 

As my Saviour dances over me

Together a chorus upon injustice

Serenity is here!

Kumala Dreaming

Flying from raincloud into the night
Submerged into waves, coming up in the light
I’m kumala dreaming

Night becomes day and day becomes night
Always love and don’t give in to the fight
I’m kumala dreaming

Bikes for the surf, sun for the rain
A koala hug heals that lonely pain
I’m kumala dreaming

From roads to the sea, green into blue
Apostle rock, reef and kakadu
I’m kumala dreaming

Story behind the poem:
2 years ago, after a difficult 7 months in my first job after graduating from university, and screwing up a relationship, I had an opportunity to go to travel to Australia for a month. For me it was a pilgrimage to a place I'd always dreamed of going to, and was a surreal experience of pain, healing and learning to trust again closing off the past to prepare for a new journey when I returned to live in my city of birth in Scotland. The plane I travelled on from London to Sydney was called 'Kumala Dreaming'.

Cailin

Growing a sunflower, stand in the rain
Discovering fun, rarely lonely or sad
When I am older
And the world is mine
No regrets, all my dreams I'll do

Dancing away, all my days
School don't matter, I don't care
But as you get older
Different choices you make
It gets harder to see, the dreams in me.

Just a little girl in this big big world
I'm easy to lose in this big big world
How will you find me
How will you see
In this great big world, a little me

Life got painful, hurt real bad
Ignoring your heart, hearing your head
As a child no longer
Your life tells a story
What do you see, when you look at me?

The years go on and on...
The years go on and on...

Just a little girl in this big big world
I'm easy to lose in this big big world
How will you find me
How will you see
In this great big world, a little me

Black Roses

Did heaven open its arms to you
Did lust burn your heart to coal
What, where do you go from here
I don't understand what you were to me

I close my eyes and breathe you in
Sweating nicotine, whiskey and beer
I really want to remember you well
Black roses is all I see

Where, where did your love go?
Where, where did your love go?
Where, where did your love go?
What goodness did I see?

I shed a tear for the sunflower
I grieved for the baby inside
But I can't and I won't
Stand my ground and I don't
Where do I go from here?

Story behind this song/poem:
I wrote this when I was trying to make sense of my feelings about the death of one of my grandparents.

Angelic Visitation

Blackness closes in around her
Her body trembles with fear
A girl curled up in the corner
For she knows the demons will appear

Trying to hide but its hopeless
Theyve no goodness, just a cold dark stare
Turn your back child so you cant see them
She wonders, 'does anyone care?'

Moonlight shines through the curtains
A flicker of hope, her mind clears
Calling out a whisper to her Father
The answer, come with me child, Im here

Waterfalls cascade beside her
Fragrant orchid pungent in the air
Son has victory over darkness
A gentle breeze strokes her hair

Beauty beyond description
Heart settled, a promise made
Youll return here as my daughter
And see woodland and everglade

Angels give protection forever
As demons terrorise the night
But fear has gone, with hope in place
Her Saviour promised, Itll be alright.

The Horizon

Driving home, down the long dark road
The fields go speeding by.
Only here, are the trucks that appear
On the roadside, their lights blind me.

And I'm thinking, what am I doing
Do I really know what I am here for
Is it over? Is pressure disappeared?
Or does false hope cloud the horizon?
Does false hope cloud the horizon?

And I say, please let it work out
Dont tell me that something is wrong
And He says, beloved, I am here
See the footprints walking in the sand
Here I am now...Here I am now.

Make a pit stop. I open the door
I just cant work out this feeling
I dont want to. I dont want to be right
My false hope clouds the horizon
My false hope clouds the horizon

And I say, please let it work out
Dont tell me that something is wrong
And He says, beloved, I am here
See the footprints walking in the sand
Here I am now...Here I am now.

Phone call comes, the vigil thru the night
Will worst fear be realised?
Angels, angels please be near
Give protection...give protection

Sunrise. A new day is born
Outcome of tomorrow never known
Whos there? Peace and Quietude.
Can you see sun shine on the horizon?

The sun shines bright on the horizon.

Story behind the song...
A few years ago, doctors thought my Dad had cancer. My exams had been put forward a week, so I ended up with a week off uni before the Spring Semester started. I'd been annoyed about my exams being put forward (less time to study), but had felt prompted by the Lord that the reason for that was because the week I had off was a time when my Dad would need me most. He went in for tests and was given the all clear - I put my 'prompt' as being my overactive imagination. Heading to visit my Mum in Edinburgh, I felt that prompt again and turned off the M90 to my Dad's. I walked in, and got told we needed to take my Dad to hospital right away. My Dad was rushed into surgery, only to be rushed back out again as they realised he had a major infection and part of his insides had gone gangrene. It was too dangerous for him to be under anaesthetic. I knew there was a good chance my Dad would die. Yet I had an enormous sense of peace - he wasn't going to. The next afternoon I spent 2 hours silently praying over my Dad while he slept for the first time in a week. 3 days later the doctors took him into surgery only to discover there was now nothing wrong with him...the infection and the gangrene had disappeared. The doctors said it was miraculous...they had never seen that happen before. I had no doubt where that miracle had come from - Jesus. And I will always be so thankful for the grace that God showed to my family that week.

Power Above

In the darkness, He watched over me
Endangered, He sent angels to sit with me
Anxious, His words calmed me
Feeling weak, His love strengthened me
Joyful, He danced along with me
I wronged, His wisdom cut through my heart
A lie clouded vision, but His truth brought light
Lacking enthusiasm, He gave a song to inspire me
Troubles lay ahead, He prepared me for battle
In an evil world, His armour empowers me
Now and always