Black Roses

Did heaven open its arms to you
Did lust burn your heart to coal
What, where do you go from here
I don't understand what you were to me

I close my eyes and breathe you in
Sweating nicotine, whiskey and beer
I really want to remember you well
Black roses is all I see

Where, where did your love go?
Where, where did your love go?
Where, where did your love go?
What goodness did I see?

I shed a tear for the sunflower
I grieved for the baby inside
But I can't and I won't
Stand my ground and I don't
Where do I go from here?

Story behind this song/poem:
I wrote this when I was trying to make sense of my feelings about the death of one of my grandparents.